.

Life has a way of distracting you from truth

even evading you from finding you

it takes all of it’s issues and hides the clues

that will keep you in darkness and shroud the real you

Fight through it all

the daily problems and mini wars

wars that keep you from the next steps on your journey

and down plays your right to your spirits victory

exploration denied by lifes plight

search for your identity

fight through the dailey

insist on victory

for it is yours!!!

Oh the reciprocity to be received in the naysayers imagery

when curtain opens and enters Me

The mer shock of it all hard to receive

never could they believe God could revive me

He did even better than my imagination breathed

and time after time I proclaimed wait till they see

the remixed me

But now that she is here I honestly dont care

if they ever see

it no longer matters to me

If they never find out what I was made to be

Its okay with me

the fact that in my spirit I am free

God did it for me

my mirror image is all the curtain open showtime

I need.

I can't lie it was love

No matter how much I try and tell myself

it wasn't love it was someting else

all in the name of trying to foul oneself into thinking

it dont hurt

cause in order to hurt it had to have been

that we meant something

our spirits did connect

our mouths did touch

our legs did wrap

I can't take those facts

back

To deal with you
I have to learn to deal with myself
to understand who I am
you must know who you are as a man
I cant tell you who you are
that’s a mystery to even you
you cant say you know me
Until you walk in my mental shoes
to thine own self be true

The Problem with ME!

The problem with me

WAS

I was to open and free.

I trusted what someone said to easily.

I gave love and affection, time and concession

to those who called THEMSELVES

What my " I love you means"

If I should utter the words my love is true

What exactly would that mean to a man like you

Who has loved one, two and three

with the vices of woman hood under lock and key

What would that mean to your maleness and masculinity?

He that has had she and her and her and she

If I uttered the words you hold my heart

What would that mean

To the damper don that you are

The Inept Pauper/Paupertte" (What happened to the dream of being Kings and Queens?)

To all the paupers puaperettes who’s personalities traits we detect
To be suspect, your under arrest
We will accept a plea
to a lesser charge if you confess
No stress
At best 2 years maybe less
We can see you
Your in plain site
Dont fight
We know you are fake
A fraud, Fraudulent
Sorry your Emmy went

Is unforgivingness satisfactory?

If my spirit would allow me to conceive and birth

not FORGIVING you and remaining cold
My mental would be in compliance
in complete alliance

my expressions remaining sold
On the price my heart had to pay
by me not being FORGIVING you
Where’s my SATISFACTION

in holding the wrongs you insulted and assaulted me with?
I have none.
Because the reality is.

My True Reflection

For years the reflection in the mirror

was who I thought I had been.

For years I heard them call my name

It took turbulent seas and a life hard spent

To understand the me I was

and the me who I now claim